Hi all,
School started for me last week. I'm half way through my second week. I'm loving it but it's so exhausting. I'm taking a full 16 credit hours and trying to find a job to fill the rest of my 'time'. Everyday I go to bed feeling tired. And its great, I just need to find time to do things I love, like writing on here. My classes are wonderful, my professors all like me (I think) and I'm getting to know more people and be more friendly.

I'm still having some issues about these boys though. If you remember from my last post #1 and #2 guy. So updates on both of them. When I got back home from my trip I texted them both telling them I was back and missed them/wanted to see them. The #1 guy texted back and #2 didn't. That night I got to see guy #1 because we are in a choir together and we carpool with like 5 other people. It was fun and we hung out (with all the carpool) after. By Friday (I got home on a Wednesday) I still hadn't seen guy #2 and kinda wanted to.... Friday night comes around and I told guy #1 I wanted to do something.... so we went to this big(ish) party and guess who was there? Yup, guy #2. So I talk with him for a while but kinda awkward! So that was that night.
Saturday #2 texts me and asks me if I'm going to a friends going away party. I had completely forgot about that and had been doing homework all day. So I said sure, but not for a while. He didn't want to go with out me. So he waited for me to be ready to go. We go and hang out there. Talk for a good hour or so, but both of us had things to do that night and didn't really go any further than that. Sunday was another day when I saw both of them, and I really wanted to talk with #2 but he left early and I barely got to talk with him at all. #1 stuck around and we talked till around 11 but we both had stuff the next morning so we figured we should go to sleep.
Monday night a guy friend of #1 texts me to invite me over for a game/movie thing. #1 is there and we talk for a while and I got a wonderful hug. I mean the kinda that you could keep on going for a long time. :) Then he started tickling me (which is interesting because I don't tickle very easily) But it was pretty wonderful while it lasted <3


Okay, so are you confused yet? I am! To add to my confusion and frustration. A good guy friend of 10 or so years, was talking with me tonight and his advice was to just leave both of them and not bother. I'm not sure if I don't like the advice because I don't want to hear it, or if I think its not very good advice. I guess I can see where he is coming from, but he doesn't know. I don't either but, maybe if I just try.

We were talking and I kinda got discouraged. It never seems like anyone is interested in me. We were talking with another friend (guy) of ours and he is talking about all the girls he's pretty much EVER been interested in. and I started to think. "Why are guys not interested in me? Ever? at least not the ones that will do anything about it." Why is it that when ever I'm interested in a guy, they are NEVER, ever interested in me back? It is always one sided. Am I shooting to high? Should I lower my expectations?


I don't know what to do....... I need a good song to listen to that completes my feelings. (songs make things better)

well so long for now,
Accommodating Artist